Scattered Thoughts

Saturday, 21 October 2017

Normal Days #75


One of the most amazing feelings I experienced today, in fact just now, gave me a slight hope and made me happy about myself. You know in today's world the most missed adventure is that we don't love ourselves. I know we say it a lot in our social media posts, we write and read about it almost every day but when we think about it, we usually either are very selfish or totally oblivious to what loving ownself means. I do not know if I love myself or not or the technicalities of the definitions set by the world of many things but I do know that I am a selfish person. A very selfish person.

No this is not one of my self-loathing posts. On the contrary today I wanted to share or tell my future self, that I still am a lil bit of human inside, not all corrupt or soulless or without morale as I project myself to others or they get the perception or whatever. I still read, though not as quite earnestly but I get by. Today when I was re-reading Without Words by Ms. Ellen O'Collenn I felt the same what I had felt when I read it the last time and it gave me hope, it gave me this feeling, a certain degree of happiness that yes I feel. I feel the pain for others, I feel this feeling of longing, the feeling to belong to someone, the feeling of loneliness and most importantly the feeling of letting go. I felt all of these feelings and before I become the person I am today, I wanted to save these dying pulses for forever so that when I would be so far along on the road of never coming back to the light again, I would know that once upon a time my heart wrenched and it was a very good feeling.

So, to my future self, read this when the world will point fingers at you and call you all kind of bad names and you go into the rabbit hole of self-hatred and rejoice in the fact that you are a very good person and those you love they can always count on you when it matters.

My Next Thirty Years

(To be Contd..)

Thursday, 9 March 2017

Normal Days #74

This One's for the Girls

So..women's day, huh?
All day you will receive texts alerts from subscription services, emails from the advertisement agencies, texts from your girl fraternities, well this I am writing from Abu Dhabi so here is already March 9th, the next day and it has all boiled down to another day.

Yeah it was women's day y'day?
"So what?" One of my colleague said to another, "I still had to cook, get kids ready for school & come to my male chauvinist pig boss?"

So this write will be about you girls, I have to write it for me to remind me the agendas and the theories we form for the welfare of certain sections of society believing we are doing 'em shit load of good but by the end of the day we exploit 'em in every which way we can, or blatantly ignore 'em of their existence. And forgive me of this write would be all over the place. Or don't. I don't care, judge me all you want. I'm right here.

First of all a lil background about the situation at my home where I grew up:

When a tragedy happened my mums came back to her place to live with her folks, I was 3 she was 28. I had influence of my granny (my mums mother) and my mother my whole life. The era in which I grew up in I think all the western folks thought about our country as underdeveloped and poor and everything in b'ween. But let me tell you one thing, in our culture women generally have all the power. At home, be it a mother, wife or daughter. She has all the say in EVERY. SINGLE. THING. But I guess daughters have power no matter what is the culture. No man at my home could deny any one of 'em anything.
Anyway, I ain't saying that we are perfect but since ages we have been worshipping women or Aadi Shakti (Immortal Power) of women. This concept of equality and/or staying with men baffles me really.

या देवी सर्वभुतेषु शक्तिरूपेण संस्थिता
नमस्तस्यै नमस्तस्यै नमस्तस्यै नमो नमः।।  

I mean you guys are the one who give us birth, you are the one nurturing us, loving us, taking care of us and you want validation from men to say that you are equal to us? Really? The ones who can't figure the life 'emselves, you want approval from that species?

I thought you guys are intelligent. But then thanks to media and all that crazy stuff they keep telling women about not being equal. C'mon we men are slobs, pls don't compete or think us as a standard. We are uncivilized brutes, animals. Just be yourself.

Also this is my personal opinion, you can hate me for that:
My mother is MA Hindi &  has a degree in Education
My wife is MA Sanskrit & an MBA
My cousin sis is MBA in finance other one is doing MBBS

but in the end they take care of their homes, coz behind every successful man there is always a woman. I love it that way. They love it that way. That doesn't mean they are powerless or stupid or dumb. At my place it means they govern every thing related to us but our offices (sometimes even that also). Scary, huh?

I don't want their identities to lose in proving 'emselves to the world while they can make the home a better place to live, filled with love & laughter rather than work related tensions and worrying about the next promotion or meeting.

So Happy Women's Day to every single one out there. Love & respect from a guy who still is a lil traditional and orthodox in his approach. And I bow down to your divinity.

Independent Women

(To be Contd..)

Sunday, 15 January 2017

Normal Days #73

The Circle of Life

So, 2017, eh? After all that happened last year from Oil crisis, to ISIS getting stronger, for some ppl Mr. Trump got elected, it was, well, to say at least a very happening year.
Resolutions? For me?
Like Calvin said in Calvin & Hobbes: I am perfect the way I am, I don't need the change.

So what now? This year sure brings us some new challenges, new hopes, new dreams to see & live, new destinations to explore, read new books, learn new language, pray, try new dishes and blah, blah, blah you have already read and being advised about.

But I want you to do one of these thing from the above list try to think yourself in a bigger picture. Pls leave your body for a minute, go up there in space and see the situation of this planet and of universe in general. Pls be the responsible person for yourself, plant some trees, there are always lesser trees anway.
Try to talk to animals, it might sound crazy, but they do listen. Try to talk to ocean, the rivers, sky, stars ask 'em what they think of you and then you will know whatever you think of yourself is not relative to that bigger picture. In simple words you, I, this whole human race is nothing. Well we all know it and yet we think of ourselves the ultimate being. So it is about time we do something like that. Like save the environment, the animals, the eco-system.

Too heavy? Well that is why I waited for the festivities of New Year to worn  out first.
See? I did my bit here. C'mon wake up move your lazy ass.

Help yourself coz acc. to Mufasa (Lion King): so we are all connected in the great circle of life.

And most important of all, LOVE. Fall in love with yourself and me too. I'm a lovable person, well I sure think of myself that way, and sing these lines to me

जानती हो हिन्दी में प्यार के कितने अक्षर,
बोल दो मेरी ख़ातिर प्यार के दो ही अक्षर

(How many words of love do you know in Hindi, speak just two words of love for me)

I'm waiting..

My Love..My Love
(To be Contd..)